Beckteria

Shout Out!

Hurray! I’m not emotionally dead afterall. I thought that my conscious had slipped away into the underworld after living in MN for eight fucking years. Not now! I’m stressed out. I’ve cried so much that my ducts are dry. I’m doing it, I’m actually going to leave.

I really want to say “thanks” to all my friends that have supported me going to Japan. My friends have been there through thick and thin, and helped drag me into a better state of mind. Thanks for talking to me and/or going out drinking with me. I couldn’t have gotten through this on my own.

It’s been so stressful. I know that in some ways, I’m a sick, sick bastard that thrives on stress and deadlines. I like to make my own life difficult—I could stay here and go about my ways in my own private Minnesota bubble. The type of bubble that sees hardly any true financial difficulties, the kind that is hard to penetrate with real political and social issues. A bubble so dense that no real emotion can be seen inside or out. Again, I wouldn’t be leaving if I didn’t think that I wouldn’t gain something. Life in MN is so easy, too easy in fact, to really want to accomplish too much. That might be an inconvenience, or accomplishment might be outside the comfort zone.

Things I feel I might miss about MN:
1. My friends and family (sister and a couple of in-laws)
2. Ethnic food—Mexican, Greek, I’m not sure what isn’t abundant in Japan & I love variety
3. Space—I’m moving from a three bedroom house to a one bedroom apartment
4. Cheese—is there cheese in Japan? If there is, I hope it’s stinky and blue.
5. Understanding what is happening on tv—but wait, my tv is still more or less broken anyway

Things I WON’T miss:
1. My job (I like the people, just not the actual work part, although it is really easy)
2. Stupid Minnesotans (not everyone is stupid, just the vast majority)
3. Fat Minnesotans (again, not everyone, just the vast majority of the population)
4. People who speak English natively, but know nothing about English (it’s really pathetic)

Yeah, I’m sure that the list is longer, but I don’t want to bore you with too much detail.

As my coworker says “Whoop-die do! I’m going to Disneyland!”

posted by Bex @ 9:36 AM