Beckteria

Get Over Yourself--Self!

Depression again. Every time I stop to ponder what the hell I’m doing, I can’t help but think that I’m ruining my life. Almost everything that I’ve accomplished it seems like I’m throwing it away. Things that once were the number one priority tumbled down on the list, and I don’t know how it happened. Everything I touch turns to shit. Fuck.

I know that going to Japan will only make me a better and stronger person. I need structure and discipline in my life. I’m definitely wanting to focus my attention on things that I’ve long neglected—understanding the “real” me and knowing what I really want to do when I “grow up.” My job has only been somewhat important to me, it certainly does not define who I am or what I am truly interested in.

I’m trying to stay focused on the positive—especially cuisine. I love Asian food and in particular could live on sushi. I ate a ton of sushi rolls at lunch today, as a going away lunch with my former boss. It was sooo tasty (ooshikatta yo!).

On a completely different note, a co-worker suggested that I look at book entitled “Fresh Fruit” by an artist named Shoichi Aoiki. It’s a compilation of Japanese people dressed all funky. This is just the way they dress, they aren’t necessarily trying to be weird. It has some interesting pic’s that portray the real craziness behind fashion in Japan. Check it out, you’ll soon see why Japanese people are easy to pick out in a crowd.

Are there any other Japanese photographers that I should check out? Let me know. Feedback is great.

posted by Bex @ 8:40 AM